Dear Beloved reader,
To be honest after a week of taking a break from releasing any new post I found myself in a bit of a daze. I found myself consumed by the very familiar stress cloud of the holiday season. There are a great deal of tasks I need to get done before Christmas and not to mention the shopping frenzy that I’ve not been looking forward to. I believe the deeper I fell in this vortex of the Holiday season the less I’ve found myself being cheerful. I spend the majority of my day stuck in an office where there can be all forms of mundane tasks and hourly freak outs from my boss . The freak out are so frequent that it can cause the whole office to be on high alert. So I guess you can imagine that the combination of work stress and daily stuff piles on me in more ways than i’d like to admit. Needless to say, this month so far has been kind of …bleh. So yesterday I sat down at my desk and I prayed. I asked the Lord to give me joy, even if I didn’t feel it. I asked him to meet me in my stress and to bring me out of this daze. Then after my prayer I went about my day, still feeling in this daze of exhausting and consuming stressful thoughts.
I hope I’m not the only one that has ever felt this way before. Sometimes the overwhelming tasks before you seem like such a huge mountain to climb, it’s as if you rather just camp at the bottom and not even bother to go up the mountain. That’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I believe this happens when we forget to take care of ourselves. I am very guilty of pouring out everything in me for people or tasks around me that before I know it I am ready to drop all the things I’m juggling and hide. I noticed it this morning as my husband was driving me to work and I sat in the passenger side trying to do my make up that I looked at my eyebrows and thought, “dang!!!! I need to get these furry puppies threaded”. I’ve spent so much time on other things in my life that seem important that I’ve neglected to take care of something simple for me, like my eyebrows. It may seem funny but I know that when I am doing something like pampering and taking care of myself it’s a way of reconnecting with the thought that my Heavenly Father cares about me. Not just about how “put together” my life is or how much I am doing for Him. He cares about my emotional, physical and spiritual state. I was brought to scripture and the many stories in the New Testament where Jesus would retreat from the crowds to be with the Father in prayer and rest. I know it seems a bit weird to think that something like just going and getting my eyebrows done can remind me that Jesus loves me and desires that I find rest in him.
In the Old Testament God put a law in place that there will be a day of the week in which the people of Israel will retreat, rest and not work calling it Sabbath. It was such a serious law that little added notes like tending your farm/ field would be outlawed that you could be punished by the religious leaders of the temple. Now I know that’s a bit extreme, but you get my point. God takes a Sabbath pretty darn serious. For many of us we observe this day of rest on the weekend.Yet I find myself spending the better half of Saturday keeping myself busy with chores around the house. Before I realized the weekend disappears and so does my rest. Rob Bell says it so perfectly “Busy is a drug that a lot of people are addicted to.” I am such a sucker to that drug. I’m always looking for things to occupy my time after work. I justify it by saying, well if I don’t do it now when will I? Or if I don’t do it who will? Or my go to justification of, well, this is what being an adult is, busy. I’m not saying to stop cleaning your home or doing the adult thing, but will it kill you to leave it till tomorrow? Is that “Thing” that important?
Palms 127:1-2 “Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. 2 It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sheep.”
I know that many of us will have a busy holiday season, either home, life, work or just trying to finish the year strong on certain projects. I URGE YOU to find rest during this holiday season. I know that I will be looking forward to a few days off around Christmas and New Year, but I will have to make a conscious effort to invite Jesus and His Peace, rest and joy into my holidays. Just like I prayed yesterday for the Lord to fill me with his peace and joy, I went right back to stressing out and thinking about all the things that I needed to do. It’s easy to go back to the things that consume our every thought and it’s even easier to find things to occupy our time. If those things or thoughts are taking the place of resting in Jesus, it’s not worth it. You can guarantee that I will find time this week to not only let myself be pampered and loved, but to also tap into the ever present peace that Jesus has for us.I pray that you do the same.